39 Weeks
It's been quite the journey... And, now-- it continues. I'm rounding a corner.
In less than 3 hours, I will be officially 40 weeks pregnant, with nothing but an even bigger bump to show for it.

I blame my silly hubby for getting my hopes up and having all of these bogus theories about me going into labor at 38 weeks or some such nonsense. He has predicted numerous days to be the day our child greets the world. But, so far, baby Ezra hasn't liked any of those options. 

My measurements have been the same for the past two weeks. 1 cm dilated, 70% effaced, and the baby's head at -1 station. The doctors seem to think that those numbers are magical and that I could go into labor at any moment. I usually leave their office feeling a bit less optimistic than all of that. 

The weeks are getting increasingly hard. My energy is depleting more each day and so is my patience. I'm not, what most people would describe as, stressed-- just anxious. Anxious to see what my body can really do as far as labor and delivery, anxious to hold my baby and look at his face for the first time (a face that is, for now, a mystery to me), and have his little tiny fingers wrapped around just one of mine. Not to mention the look on Jon's face when he see's it all happen. Having gone through the whole emergency c-section, terrifying newborn health situation, and then having a 6.5 year old who is basically a grown up compared to changing a poopy, size 1 diaper... It's gonna be a completely new experience.

I'm getting tired of people calling me every day to ask if I'm "STILL pregnant" or say, "Haven't you had that baby yet?!" Especially when most of them are family members that would be informed the moment something happened. Most people are also convinced that because DH is so tall (6'2") and weighed 10 lbs, 6oz at birth, that our child is going to be a mammoth. I hear numerous times a week about how humongous our child is going to be. Or how late.
Even when I went shopping the other day, the lady checking my items at Victoria's Secret seemed to be an EXPERT in the fact that most 1st babies are late. While it's true that 70% of all babies are born after their due date, I don't need reminded of that every five seconds!

What's really funny is, after all of the talking THEY do they say, "Well, don't be too worried or stressed out. The baby will come when it's ready." REALLY? I didn't have a clue. -_-
If maybe, just maybe, I could get away from all that talking I would be completely fine with my baby boy waiting this thing out and letting me know whenever he is ready to make his grand entrance. And I'm sure with all the pain I'm in now, a grand entrance it will be!

Between all that and DH's mom & dad in town and wanting to come over all the time, and the awkward relationship (or lack thereof) that I already have with his sister-in-law heading into uncharted waters, I'm just a little sleep deprived, tense, and moody. Jon has literally been such a doll and told me to complain as much as I wanted. Poor thing-- I don't think he understood what that meant. Haha. He is basically my life coach right now and I don't know what I'd do without him.

So, with my due date tomorrow, I'm just sitting here drinking in the fact that hubs is cleaning the kitchen for me and my whole house smells like french vanilla creamer, and wondering- Where is Baby McConnell?
I never really realized what a far cry being 39 + 6 pregnant is from the "real life" of people who can actually plan from day to day what they'll do and not have to worry about if their water breaks on the seat of their car, or that they are too exhausted to walk from one end of their house to the other, or that the stinging/pinching/stabbing pains in their lady parts might actually make then black out at some point. I envy those people... 

So tomorrow, if/when I wake up, even more pregnant than I was before, DH and his dad will go to the Verizon store to sort out a bill, my mom will go to the eye doctor for new contacts, Noah will go to school, and I will be sitting here waiting...and waiting....and waiting... As they hours pass and feel more like days. 

I honestly feel like that might be why I'm carb loading and sleeping so much... It helps the day pass quicker. If I can go into my bedroom and black out for a couple hours, then when I wake up, I assume I'm that much closer to labor. Pretty sad, I know.

I won't face any kind of induction until the end of the week. The doctors I see don't like to let you go more than one week over your due date, so I made my appointment for as late this week as possible (Thursday) and have prayed numerous times a day since then, that Ezra make his way out before that terrible hormone, Pitocin, makes it's way in! 
I was told that most women don't ever make it to induction and go into labor beforehand, which I found surprising because I thought it was more common. But, even so, I want to be mentally prepared for it just in case life hands me a lemon, as it does so often to so many of us.

But, I know I'm not the only one, and a lot of you girls out there reading this that are like 2 weeks past your due date probably just want me to shut up already! Haha. Actually, there is a TurboKick teacher about 4 hours from here that I discovered on Instagram and she is amazing! We actually have the same due date and she has been such an inspiration when it comes to exercise, diet, and overall health before, during, and after pregnancy. Her name is Meredith Campbell. If you have time, check out her Facebook page or follow her on Instagram @meredithcampbell. 

Alright y'all, that's all I've got for tonight. I'll keep you posted as things progress!
Abby Kopchak
3/3/2013 11:46:02 am

Hang in there sweetie! We are all cheering you on (even from far away) You are in the process of writing a story. The story of Ezra and how he came into this world, a story you will tell and retell for the rest of your life. I guess kids teach us from the very beginning that something's we can't control which I guess is what makes it so scary and exciting along with frustrating. As moms as long as our children are happy and healthy then we are happy and you must be keeping him pretty happy in there! I write this as a mom who story is different but universally the same so I send you warm thoughts and Christian love. You are going to do great!


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